When I was in middle school, I planned out my entire high school career. The summer after 8th grade I took a summer class (by choice) so by the time I was a senior I would have completed all the health science courses, including the technical ones. I remember getting that course sheet plan in middle school, and my goal was to graduate high school with a CNA license and work as a CNA while I was in college. I executed every class since then, got great grades, and even planned to become an officer of the health science club (I was the president my senior year). All my plans had fallen into place and I was doing great.
The only problem is, I didn’t plan on changing my mind.
I had all of this set up, I thought I knew what I wanted…. and then I realized that I didn’t even want to be a nurse. After doing the clinical rotations and following doctors and nurses around, I couldn’t do that for too long… I would get so tired of it. Because who knows me better than myself?
Now I’m here, trying to figure out what I want to go to school for and what I want to do. I’ve developed dreams and ideas that I want to pan out so badly. Some of them are big, others are small, but each deserved their own love and attention.
I have big dreams of business running around in my brain. Working with a small business in their main office made me think, “I could totally do that.” Obviously dreams like that take lots of time, planning, and money, but for those things to happen I have to work hard now.
But, there are things that I want that aren’t so out of reach…
For example: I really want a pug. Like, how cute are those little guys? They all have their own personalities, with their smushed faces and weird barking. Whats not to love?
When I need inspiration to keep working hard and saving money, I’ll think to myself,
“Hey, if I don’t work hard now… how am I going to provide for my future pug!?”
These dreams of business and pug ownership are definitely not on the same level, but they both need to be worked for. I can dream about my future apartment (& I already know EXACTLY how I want it to be…) but if I keep dreaming about it, it’ll just stay a dream! The way I think about it is, no matter the dream, big or small, each day you have to work hard and work on yourself in order for those dreams to EVER become a reality.
My love for myself and the measures I take to care for my mental hygiene was not something that just kind of popped up in my mind to do. Taking each day one step at a time, I’ve realized that I’ve grown so much already just this past year!
So, what I’m saying is… I need to work hard because I love and care about myself. I can do it! I can make it happen! I WILL have a pug in the future! I WILL save money, work hard, and finally have my own place to start my vinyl collection. Everything will fall into place if I strive for it to.
Peace & Love,