This time last year I was in a really deep episode of depression. I remember having a dream about myself. I was tanned, happy, my hair was long, I was surfing in Southern California, and I had this aura of strength that I have never seen in myself before.
This might sound crazy, but I think that might have been a vision. Something in the back of my mind was telling me, “Look, things are kind of sucky right now… okay, REALLY sucky. But you see this strong woman? That’s you! That’s who you are inside, all you need to do is grow into that person, when you are ready to fully appreciate your growth.”
At that time I had no idea I was going to live in SoCal, this close to Huntington Beach. I even have a friend that offered to teach me how to surf!
Seeing this connection is kind of like seeing the light at the end of a tunnel. There are so many pains I had to go through to reach this point of acceptance & thankfulness, and I still have so much more to learn! I wouldn’t have known my worth if I didn’t get my heart broken. I wouldn’t have thought to put an effort into taking care of myself if I didn’t go through the financial struggles I’m going through now.
Just like I said in my last post, everything happens for a reason!!!!
The friends, lovers, family members, and strangers that come and go in your life teach you things whether you know it or not. Love is everywhere, and I’ve found that it can be in the most strange places. Going on this journey to define love wouldn’t have started if I felt like I already felt love in my life. The bad things that happen to us, may not necessarily be bad in the long run. Wisdom comes from experience. Strength comes from training. Love comes from where you least expected it.
Peace & Love,